Teenager Sonja (Sabrina Kruschwitz) is struggling with her feelings with her best friend Julia (Julia Kaufmann). She is unsure about her boyfriend and her sexual attraction to men in general. She tries to tell Julia but can't quite say it out loud. Julia vows to stay a virgin until marriage. Her mother confronts her for being a lesbian.This is a short 72 minutes movie and even then, the movie is pretty thin. It really needs for Sonja to give voice to her sexuality. That's where all the drama resides but the movie insists on hesitating. It's a long tease that loses some of the tension. There are some interesting stuff and it's touching when the girls finally have their moment. Kruschwitz's performance is great but the long tease takes a toll.

Even though this film is lacking something in the end, some additional scene. Maybe with the mom I think, I still love it. After watching this film, go back, watch the beginning and listen to Sonja's poem. The poem is about loneliness, it sets the tone and speaks on the whole movie. While I understand the intent (it's almost a teaser to the peace), I think the poem would have been better at the end while Sonja was walking away as it says what needs to be said about the story as gives it a sort of peace and understanding and even beauty that the existing ending doesn't.While this movie is about self-discovery, it is also about the loneliness of such a journey. And it is lonely and frustrating to feel a million things that can't be spoken. To have your mother misunderstand you, to not feel the way you're suppose to feel about boys -- the way all the other girls are feeling about boys, and to have this friend... this friend who touches you on so many unique ways down inside your soul, but who doesn't understand the depth of it. And on the one hand you want them to know and understand, but on the other hand you question... if they did, would I still have them? And it can tear you apart to hold this question inside you.While there are flaws in the piece (the ending, the pacing, disjointed transitions), there's also a lot of heart in it. In the final scene between Sonja and Julia in the film I could feel Sonja's heart falling into her hands as she finally opened up to Julia. In fact, all through the movie I felt Sonja. The actress that played her was incredible and the story's core is beautiful. Like I said, you'll feel cheated by the ending at first. But then go back to the beginning and listen again to Sonja's poem for Julia and you understand the story so much better.

I would salute to the scriptwriter, for I almost feel this is a story of myself. It's so true and sincere and down to earth,recalling the intense scenarios of my past. When you fall in love with someone,you can not simply be her/his friend and watching him/her making out with someone else. That could be a really torturing experience and the only way out is leaving and wish her/him good. I actually did this and that was an agonizing decision to make. Every time I saw sonja and the girl become more intimate,I thought they would definitely get together in the end.But it's not a typical lesbian movie with a happy ending. The girl really disappointed me---and I believe some other audiences-----whenever she talked about another hot guy she met after snog with sonja.Plus,you could also see the expression of despond on sonja's face at the same time. As for every gay, you know the hardship of finding someone-----except for cruise--------that counts, for at first you may love one of your friends who makes you afraid that the exposure of your sexuality would shun him/her and entails your apart.In this film, we always see sonja scowling and saturnine all the time while we can not be quite sure if it's because of her parents' divorce or she is simply just confused about sex.But as she concealed the true feeling of herself after all,we can suddenly feel the sorrow she ever suffered before and the sacrifice she made for loving this very girl that she's been smitten with. And we could also sense the agony of "I want you to do it.",which is like six scalding searing-irons of letter burning in her heart.Because I think there are trillion reasons that she should give her first to someone she loves,not out of spite. The step of the film is quite level and give me a feeling of natural and beautiful.The soundtracks are also great. This is a story of a girl who is beginning to discover the truth of her sexuality and we may say she did not handle it very well.But from another point of view,if the society could be more acceptant and tolerant, the story would be another version. Maybe it's so similar to the story that ever happened in my life,so I give it a high score.And I could not understand sonja any better.

for - and only for 15 year old girls.This film is directed by Finnish Kirsi Liimatainen in German film school. Liimatainen is known as an actor in some TV-series in the 90s. Directing is partly just okay, partly rather meaningless. The storyline is bad, the anticlimax of the ending is frustratingly hollow and the actors are empty.. And just how many times do we see the maincharacter step out of a car in the middle of nowhere and start walking pointlessly away in some direction.. or from home... or from anywhere wherever she is in the every single scene. One time she even seem to cross a lake or something. And there's dozens of scenes where the film keeps rolling, filming her while she's alone, with her thoughts (probably wondering when that bulls*** is going to be over)So... We've had enough of these already. Why couldn't a teenager enjoy this? Of course one can, but as a movie this is just horrible. The maincharacter is Sonja, and she's terribly in love with her best friend, Julia, and she don't know how to say it. Sonja is having hard time in home with her mother, who found out that her daughter is interested in girls. Girls planned, that they'd go to Sonja's dad for a visit, but Julia can't come because she just lost her virginity.. And while Sonja is away from home, why shouldn't she try too. She has sex with his dad's neighbour who looks like he at least 10 years older than her. Blaah Blaah Blaah..Watch Heavenly Creatures, not this!